是我
不該在意，
還是太大意，
總讓你的言語態度牽動我情緒。
面對自己，
卻又總是顧慮到你的情況、你的心情，
無法坦然　對你表白心中想法，
不能說、不想說、不要說，
搞的自己任性又彆扭。
這是我的日記，我想我能夠坦白一點。
我想要_
逃避說話、逃避難過，壓抑情緒，強迫自己不哭泣。

該褒你太有責任，還是貶你太笨蛋，
為何非得把重重的壓力直往肩上扛？
有的時候，明明已經一點一滴的　卸下了一些，
心裡卻又敏感的緊張，
再把卸下的壓力撿回去。
你重不重？
累不累？
要不要休息一下？
我當然懂你說的道理，
但是「不可能的任務」不是每個人都能做得到。
而，愈希望「一蹴可及」，愈容易失去擁有，也壞了身體。

總會捨不得把自己的壞情緒宣染於你，
可愈想掩蓋，就顯得愈混濁。


如果有一天，
我能夠不帶任何情緒的什麼都依你，
請你給我掌聲鼓勵鼓勵；
那表示，你的模樣我已學得七分像，
不愧做為你的徒弟。

也許，那個誰說對了，我行我素真的會快樂…。




－。－。－。－。－。－。－。－。－。－。－。－。－。－。－。－。－。

I  will  not  make  the  same  mistakes  that  you  did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you


凱莉克萊森(Clarkson, Kelly). 　Because of you