這是我生命中一個很重要的故事。。。也是對我的功課分數很重。。。。英文也。。。。希自己辛苦寫的。。。如果用中文寫的。。。不知道哪一天才寫得完。。。沒辦法。。。念的是全英科係。。。vocabulary再不好也得寫。。。hope u enjoy it。。。
To my dearest William
October 4, 2005, is a memorable day for me. An incident that happened on that day had made a huge impact on me. It changed the way how I face my life. I can say I have become more mature since that.
Early that morning, about 6a.m., the house was quite, but occasionally smuggle man’s snoring in the whole house cover the peaceful atmosphere, until unannounced cell phone rings broke the silence. It waked my parents up. The silence only hold for a few seconds, my mother rushed into my room waked me up and told me the news. My sleepiness immediately disappeared.
At the police station, I walked to the serious deformed car that once used to be very familiar to me. All the mirrors are gone, the head had gone, and originally four person seats had become double seats. I could see many tiny pink things all over the seat, doors, and the body of the car. I forced myself not to imagine the horrible scene. Deeply I memorized the “car” in my mind. I kept calling his name in my mind. Everything seems like I’m in a nightmare.
Maybe you won’t believe in me, I did dreamt about his death, but I didn’t expect it to really happen. Everything seems, so not true. Why him? I kept on asking myself. I didn’t expect he would be the first one to leave. The cried of his brother keep repeating again and again in my mind. I never seen he cry before, even he was abandoned by his mother but he did that day.
My aunty claimed that William wasn’t feeling well that day. My grandmother had forced him to see the doctor and he did rest early after taking the medicines. Nobody knew he went out that day.
According to William’s colleague, they forced him to join the birthday party. After the celebration, they plan to continue revelry by the beach bay. About 3a.m in the morning, William loaded another 2 males and 4 females because the lack of the transportation. When they passed by the section of the highway which have the highest accident rate, the car’s speed had assess over 140km/h. Police officer believed that the car lost control in the high speed and bumped into the balustrade that located by the road, and overturned. His colleagues whose follow behind him arrived at the scene after the accident happened and called the police. William and the girls died in flagrante delicto, the rest of the boys; one was grievous bodily harm and one lightly injured.
William is my eldest cousin. He comes from an incomplete family and had experienced a tough life.
My eldest uncle has three sons. William is his eldest son, follow up with Johnson and Simon. His father has a mental sickness since he had involved in a car accident when he was very young. My father says that once my uncle was a very clever boy, but now he always talks to himself and acts like a child. Whenever we eat, he will come over and ask for it. He once worked as a worker to weld the metal. But, after his eyes had been hurt by the sparkling light, my grandmother asked him to quit the job. And now, he only stays at home going some form of housework. We once thought he had been cursed and got some Taoists to see him, but it never work.
William’s mother brought Simon with her away from home when William was in elementary school. She once complaint to my mother that she had married with my uncle without knew the truth. Her resentment caused a great conflict with my grandmother and aunty. The adult’s conflict did affect the kids. All the kids in my family, including me, William and Johnson, dared to tease his mother in front of her. Until now, the humiliate words “Eat shit!”, “Go to hell” keep surrounding in my mind when the scene recall. I still can feel the hot on my face, and the pain of her anger’s result. One day, she took Simon out and went to William’s school to say farewell to him and gone disappeared. The adults kept searching them after they discovered but no response at all. I couldn’t remember did they report to the police or not.
Although he always got hit by his mother strictly, but we all knew that he is the one who his mothers like the most between her sons. He is only a little child. It must be very austereness and hurt to him to face such a big blow. He never cried in front of us but kept speaking something bad about his mother with the others kids in the family with his only brother that had left. I still remember six of us gathered together and drew the pictures of his mother and a guy that we thought she had ran away with and cursed them badly.
Since he was born, his family’s love is twisted and inappropriate. My aunty is the only one who supports them up, along with my grandmother.
When he slowly grew up, he slowly understood the black and white about his family. And the sight-seeing from my other cousins make him lock on his heart. William is poor academically due to his background. On the other side, my second elder cousin who is the smarter kid between us looked down on him. Williams as the eldest son in my family had his pride, he did not ask for help.
One day, my aunt asked my second cousin to help William in his assignments, but my second cousin flatly disagreed and pointed out his disability. Since that day, William never spoke a word to others cousins until he got involved in the accident. He rejected all the approachable from other family’s members, except my grandmother, his brother, my brother and I. He always communicated with my aunty and uncles whose under the same roof through his brother.
October 5, about 9 a.m., whole the family gathered at mortuary’s front door. William’s mother brought Simon entered. What a critical scene, we didn’t seem each other about fifteen years, but forced to meet on his funeral. I was confused that should I feel glad for the reencounter or sad at that moment. Anyway, it was lucky that William successfully got the contact with his mother two years ago.
Before we get out his body, in Chinese traditional we need to help him wear a nice shroud. However, no matter how hard my uncles try, they still cannot make it. Finally, Johnson is the miracle, he kept asking his brother to relax while helping his brother dressing. Johnson held William’s pictures in both hands and led us all the way to the temple. William’s former classmates and colleagues enter the funeral, pay him the last view. When the button was pressed, the coffin slowly moved into the cremator. He finally released his sadness that had been hold for whole day. My tears dropped like the raindrop, needles were jab into my heart. That moment, I pledge to live for his part too.
Every family has their own tough parts. I feel very sorry to William not only he seldom enjoy the happiness from parents but he always acted in negative ways when he was alive. My aunty and uncle watch him grown up, fulfilled his substance needs, but he didn’t spoke a word to them for years until he died, in return they never got mad on him. Their desperation and regret impact me. His death is a cut in my family.
This is the first impressive experience of death to me. From that on, I learn to treasure the time with my family. Even now, every times I miss him, my eyes still sprinkled with tears. Life is short and anima is breakable. Nobody know where we going to be, what we going to be after we die. So, do give up hate, do love and care for the one that you love to avoid regret.
William, you are always in my heart.
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